Today has been a day of letting go. I closed down my website, A Peaceful Path. I stopped my subscription to Mad Mimi (goodbye newsletter). I copied all my previous blog posts (in case my grandchildren are ever interested) and after this post is published, I will close The Peaceful Journey.
While copying these posts, I noticed the lead from a post in December, 2010. At the time, I was receiving prompts to write about and this prompt was "Let Go" - What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
My answer today is so very different than in 2010. It is so very different than I ever would have imagined.
Recently I have felt a shift - maybe not of earthquake status, but certainly worthy of creating cracks in my personal surface. I did not seek this shift; I actually don't even pretend to understand it. And yet, it is a shift that has profoundly changed my life.
Where just a few months ago, I relished writing about my experiences - today I have a hard time putting my thoughts in order. Perhaps I am just tired of examining this journey. Maybe I just want to sink into the moment and relinquish my role of observer.
Interestingly, what I am aware of is that as pieces of my life are falling away, I feel lighter, more expectant. Maybe it is just time for the next phase of these travels.
Today, I notice that my heart sings when playing with my youngest granddaughter and when listening to the preteen trials of my older one. I am so excited that we are moving to a new apartment and filled with plans for filling this space with love. I'm about to start working at our local bookstore and the prospect of meeting new people every day makes me smile.
I cannot say if I will write again. I only know that when this began, I promised to be as authentic as possible. That said, my place of authenticity is settling into this new life full-time and seeing what fits.
Writing the Peaceful Journey has been the most amazing experience. Your wonderful comments and encouragement have meant more to me than you could ever know. Our sharing this life has such a tender spot in my heart.
Letting go is bittersweet. But this is good-bye for now.
Farewell and Happy Travels!